Discipline... Just the word makes me a little edgy as I recount the areas of my life that I find this character trait sorely lacking. At times I feel overwhelmed with the lack of discipline I have to move forward and accomplish those things that I know I need to do. I have it all planned out in my mind and my heart seems fully "on board".... but somewhere between my good intentions and reality I choose to be sidetracked. In our society we might say "The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak." I guess I am in good company, as Paul shared his own struggles with this dilemma in Romans 7:18 & 19:
"For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh; for the wishing is present in me, but the doing of the good is not. For the good that I wish, I do not do; but I practice the very evil that I do not wish."
Whether it be in the area of physical exercise, physical restraint (watching what I eat), completing chores, or areas of spiritual and relational growth...I can find myself out of shape and lazy.... or worse yet, just plain rebellious! Plain and simple, there is no other way to look at it.
I have met people that seem to have a greater inclination towards discipline as part of their character. Do they have to work hard at that trait in order to make it appear natural and easy? I don't know. All I do know, is that for me, it is a struggle to make a disciplined lifestyle habitual and become second nature. Paul addresses this idea of training in 1 Timothy 4:7:
"...discipline (train) yourself for the purpose of godliness..."
The idea here is the same as going to a gym to work out...training yourself for better physical health and form.
A few months back we purchased a treadmill and I have been trying to use it for 30 minutes 3-4 times a week. I finally got tired of feeling fatigued, not fitting into the clothes hanging in my closet and the general physical slump I've been in. I desire to be a good steward of the body the Lord has given me...and to age as gracefully as I can. Likewise, I want to discipline my spiritual life in the same manner by growing in grace and wisdom, honoring God in what I say and do. Truth of the matter is...I'm not always willing to do what it takes to achieve success in these areas. Whether it means enduring the pain and sweat of my treadmill workout, or clearing my mind enough to come before God for renewal on a daily basis...I often don't make the best choice. Why is it easier for me to turn on the computer and read the encouraging posts and comments of my blogville friends...than it is to steal away and read the encouraging words of my Savior? This is an area I am addressing.
Paul reminds us that our spiritual workout is much more important that our physical training:
"...for bodily discipline is only of little profit, but godliness is profitable for all things, since it holds promise for the present life and also for the life to come. It is a trustworthy statement deserving full acceptance. For it is for this we labor and strive, because we have fixed our hope on the living God, who is the Savior of all men, especially of believers. Prescribe and teach these things." 1 Timothy 4:8-11
We are also encouraged to keep our focus on renewing our "inner" being:
"Therefore we do not lose heart, but though our outer man is decaying, yet our inner man is being renewed day by day." 2 Corinthians 4:16
It is clear from scripture that this spiritual "workout" calls for a serious commitment and approach, just like the discipline needed by an
athlete in training. It is a "no-pain, no-gain" effort! So, I can't wait around for the Spirit to "move me" to approach the throne of grace...any more than an
athlete in training would wait for his coach's invitation to "feel like" joining him at the gym. Improving personal character and discipline takes personal commitment, personal effort and personal desire for improvement. Spiritual discipline also takes work, training and dieing to self. I don't always have the "desire" to spend time in the Word in a spiritual "workout" or to serve someone that the Lord has put in my path. But, the rewards are worth the effort....and I am interested in growth.
"And let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we shall reap if we do not grow weary." Galatians 6:9
"...let us also lay aside every encumbrance, and the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of faith..." Hebrews 12:1-2